When my family was still intact, and lived together more or less happily in a big light house [this last happened probably a good 3 years ago], my grandmother would come to visit from Moscow for three months every spring. This happened for about 8 years until two years ago.
My Grandma is quite self sufficient, and she got around on a bicycle on her own… and technically she studied English, so she could theoretically find her way around.. but we taught her a few phrases just to be sure that she’s ok. Phrases she learned:
“Hello, My name is Valentina!’
“I live at seven-zero-nine la para ave. palo alto”
and, of course “Help me! I’m lost!”
We laughed about it at the time… but what a necessary phrase.
I repeat it now. Help me! I’m LOST!
No… really…. I am LOST and HYSTERICAL.
I’ll start with the definitions:
|1.||no longer possessed or retained: lost friends.|
|2.||no longer to be found: lost articles.|
|3.||having gone astray or missed the way; bewildered as to place, direction, etc.: lost children.|
|4.||not used to good purpose, as opportunities, time, or labor; wasted: a lost advantage.|
|5.||being something that someone has failed to win: a lost prize.|
|6.||ending in or attended with defeat: a lost battle.|
|7.||destroyed or ruined: lost ships.|
|8.||preoccupied; rapt: He seems lost in thought.|
|9.||distracted; distraught; desperate; hopeless: the lost look of a man trapped and afraid.|
|1.||an uncontrollable outburst of emotion or fear, often characterized by irrationality, laughter, weeping, etc.|
|2.||Psychoanalysis. a psychoneurotic disorder characterized by violent emotional outbreaks, disturbances of sensory and motor functions, and various abnormal effects due to autosuggestion.|
I do not know what to do.
For extra fun, let’s also add these two:
|1.||excessive excitement or enthusiasm; craze: The country has a mania for soccer.|
|2.||Psychiatry. manic disorder.|
|1.||a sudden overwhelming fear, with or without cause, that produces hysterical or irrational behavior, and that often spreads quickly through a group of persons or animals.|
|2.||an instance, outbreak, or period of such fear.|
|3.||Finance. a sudden widespread fear concerning financial affairs leading to credit contraction and widespread sale of securities at depressed prices in an effort to acquire cash.|
So here I am. Sleepless. Growing permanently attached to my VAIO, and reading reading reading.
As far as I can see, this has not only done NO GOOD for me, but actually worked to increase the LOST/HYSTERIA/MANIC/PANIC that I’ve gotten myself into.
Curiously enough, I am not alone in this.
This is my desk at home. On it are: a lot of moleskins, a lot of writing/drawing/drafting utencils, an external hard drive, cheap usb speakers, a leather MENU folder I use insted of a mouse pad, a KinderPingui, a glass of milk… and a lot of other things.
This is my desk at WORK. It has a lot of things on it. You can only see HALF of it on the photo: